For all of my life I have been stuck on a diet, if I was on a non-diet day, I would eat for England because I could, then would starve myself for 2 weeks. I stayed thin because of that, but I was either depriving myself because I couldn't eat, then felt guilty when I did eat. I love food, therefore my relationship with food was making me crazy. That's all I ever thought about.
At the end of last year I read your book and would now say that I'm 70% normal, which for me is amazing, if people go out for a meal I will go, and I will choose what I want even if that's chips. If I want a pudding, I'll eat one.
I have a stash of 'my' chocolate that's been in my room since Xmas and I eat a bit of it when I want it. The fact that it's not going to run out, makes me know that I don't need to eat it right then, it will be there tomorrow if I want it, but I usually don't. Its weird.
I have never felt freedom like this before.
My weight is now less than before, I don't go to the gym half as much and I'm loving this feeling.
Although a lot of people still don't think I eat 'normally' (because I don't eat constantly like they do) I eat what I want, when I want. Even something as simple as scrambled eggs on toast. I know it sounds silly, but before I wouldn't eat it because of the fat in it, now I will eat it and enjoy it and, for me, that is a huge hurdle.
I just want to thank you soooo much for this freedom, you have made my life so much more enjoyable.
Anne Kirkham (28 yrs, Stoke-on-Trent)
Anne that is the most fabulous story - thank you for sharing it with us. I too now feel nearly 'normal' around food for probably the first time in my life - I no longer feel the compulsion to eat because it's a meal time or because food is available - and it is the most wonderful freedom! Very best wishes to you as you continue on your Beyond Chocolate journey.ReplyDelete